Imperfect Life

its a day which i supposed to be excited like last year
i remember
when i mop the floor while the person just starring.
i like to see him smiling
the way he smile make he so sunshine
make me feel like to be good to him
if i out of his sight now,
i guess i will be on the phone,
hear his breath
lying on the sofa
he never be with me since the day he's gone
i cried few night in the silence alone at the balcony
remember everything of him
scold me when i do something bad
pamper me when i not feeling well
i just miss him so much
but i could not tell anyone the emptiness in my heart
before he's gone, i promised him i will be good
i will take care of everything
i will not crying like in the past
he knows i only get so easy to make the tear rolling on my face when i talk to him and mum
i dun know why
it just happen
the night he's gone, everyone just lost control
some just yelling, some just nagging to bring him back
i wish i not being rational that time.
i'm so rude to everyone for not being acting appropriate
it's a first father's day without my father,
and i miss him alot
i wish he could make it every year
so i can pamper him with nice meal
we go window shopping in klcc
seeing the car on the road
serve him as a master while i'm the driver

there's no more chance i can do it anymore.
what i can promised are
treating his lover well
serve the elders as he does
respect to the elders as he wants us

sorry, daddy
for treating you well when you're still with me
i'm so sorry for being a rude and trouble daughter
so sorry to break your heart by doing something you dislike
forgive me, father
and i miss you